another day another dollar!

Hello my fellow Ana's,
i hope your days are going good, i am at work and i do love my job, I'm currently in training to be fully qualified in business administration, all is going well, I'm excelling in my books (for training) i have a boyfriend who is amazing, i have a great family but i cant shake off this weight, what is wring with me??

As i have mentioned i was bulimic, for quite sometime and now that things are going great (on the outside) i need to fix the one thing that gets me down..... me!

i used to be so happy when i was thinner so i have decided why fight fate anymore? I can hide an eating disorder well (I've had practise) and i have convinced my Boyfriend that i will be happier thinner and he should help me achieve that, he has been great so far until i came clean and told him i threw up my boost juice that i later found out had 442 CALS!! i couldn't believe it, i wanted to have the boost coz i thought t would be the best lunch of the week,  he started with the whole "why do you want to throw up your food? why do you eat when you just throw it up anyway?" he clearly doesn't get it, I'm weak i couldn't do it, i couldn't fast the whole day, well i soon took what he said as constructive criticism and went to the gym that night with one goal and one goal only..... i was losing at least 500 Cal's by the end of my gym session and was not leaving until the Cal's were gone, i did it 7.2kms later and an hour and 20 mins on the tread mil and i did it! nothing can describe the happiness i felt going to bed 500 cals lighter, i also did 40 minutes of sit ups once home ;)

i have found a way to make calorie counting as easy as playing a game on your iphone, its a calorie counter app!!  it tells me ow many cals i have had for the day, how many cals are in each thing i have drank, (as i barely eat) i really think this could be the start of a beautiful Ana, now i just have to get through and i will be fine, i will take this one day at a time and push myself to the limits to achieve my goal. i have had 2 coke zeros (1 cal each) and a coffee (35 cals) i feel great! i have also started on the ABC Diet, i have started yesterday so i am on day 2 (500 cals) - if you would like more information on the ABC Diet please let me know and i will send it to you!

I'm excited starting a new diet plan! i know i will stick to it and i have my beautiful byfriend here to help motivate me, i assured him i wont get as bad as last time (i was unbelieveably underweight - and i loved it) i know i will and i open it with open arms, happiness, restricting, diets, excercise and that unbelieveable high you get when your stomache rumbles and you know its the third day you have fasted and you feel so great you could go another day.

Ladies & gents, i am here to help you and i hope i can get the same from you, contact me, share with me, let me know how the diets and restricting is going for you, lets motivate eachther for a thinner wold!

thats all for now guys, stay tuned for tips and tricks real soon.....

in the mean time starve on my beautiful Ana's..... Starve on!