Ana, is that you?

I had a dream last night I saw this perfect girl, beautiful long brown hair, her hip bones were so beautifully trying to hold up her size 0 jeans, her fingers were long and boney, her white singlet was trying to hide every single perfect rib that her rib cage was so proudly showing off, her perfect thighs had the perfect gap between them, her wrists were boney and beautiful she could've floated on air, she was so thin so beautiful so perfect! She walked towards me, I thought she was going to walk straight past me but it was me she was wanting. She asked me a question that everytime I think about it, it makes me cry. She was so perfect. She asked "Are You Happy?" I stared at her and said "No" she stared at me staring at the floor. She asked "Why Not?" I choked back the tears and said "Beacause I'm Not Perfect" she asked me why? I didn't know what to say but I think my look said it all.
"your the only one doing this to yourself!, you could have perfection! But do you want it?!" "YES!" I said wanting to cling to her bratuiful bones and put her in my pocket so she could tell me what to do, what to say, but then she replied "No you don't!, if you wanted this, you would have this! But you don't! You don't have a gap between your thighs that show control, you don't have the ribs of someone with power! If you did want this like you say you do THEN TAKE IT! Stop complaining and get control! Every bite you take takes you away from this and you let it! It's pathetic!".
I cried not because I thought she was wrong or harsh, but because she was right! She knows I want this she knows I can do this, she believes in me! Some how she seems familiar to me! I know her from somewhere, somewhere important.
"Why are you crying? Are you weak?!" I look at her and say "I am weak, I want strength I need guidance, I let myself down and I know I can do better!" "then why don't you do better?!" "I will I'll do better!"
I stared at her she staring at me, I was wondering and trying to figure out where I knew her from. She was staring at me, she looks like she knows where she knows me from and she can see I'm trying to figure it out!

"you know what you have to do, don't you? Either be stronger or throw up more and exercise more!"
"Your lazy, pathetic! You want perfection then starve for it! Crave for it! Lie for it! Die for it!"

As she walked away I was still trying to figure out who she was but I now know what I must do!.....