3 outta 24!, not bad!

In regards to the title, I have eaten good 3 days outta the last 24, not bad, I could've done better, but unfortunantly I think my body has hit a wall!, a big FUCKEN brick wall, I can't get passed 59-60 kgs!!, grr I'll fast 28 days then I'll do the Abc for 50 days, see which causes most weightloss! Ooh and I have bought a sample pack of Ephedra! Let's see how they go, it's day 3 of ephedra and starting fast again today!, ok now the good stuff!
Today's consumption;
1 x morning coffee, 70 cals
1 x weightloss shake 120 cals,

Looks like I'll be having water the rest of the day!, I hate water but fuck it!
And After a drug fuelled week, I think a fast is just what I need!!, I do feel skinnier after all the drugs!, so that's a plus but drugs and depression doesn't mix! Suicidal thoughts came back, I wanted it all to end!.....
I told the bf I feel this way, he asked why I told him I have depression, he changed the subject,