Have you ever looked at the life you built, the life that you've spent making every decision to try make perfect, and thought, what if it were different?, I thought about the bf not liking rail thin girls and I thought what if I could eat a normal meal and not think and stew on it all night long, what if I could get bigger and have tits again, what if..... I wonder if that's why I had a dream I killed myself, in my dream it was an accident, I was cleaning my car in my mums garage and had the doors closed listening to music and all of a sudden I felt weak and dizzy then woke up thinking, omg I'm alive, mehh!
I'm not eating solids but I'm not getting skinnier!, I'm a fat whore who will never be skinnier!, I look at my life and think Fuck it!, I wanna change it, I want it different!, I don't know what I want I have had countless jobs most in different professions, I want a dramatic change!
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All haters comments will be deleted and not read, we don't come into your house and judge you for stuffing you'r face full of food do we?? No so if your not pro ana go eat a cake!! Hahahaha lets starve for a thinner us!
Starve on beauties!! Xxxxx love ya