Am I too old

I feel like I'm to old to be Ana, I look for others that are like me but all I find are 15 year old girls starving for perfection but no one my age. Please in no way take offence my young Ana's you are all fantastic but I would like to know someone my age going thru this, I'm 23 in a matter of weeks but am yet to get thinspiration from someone, I feel like I'm flying blind. I know what I used to do to be Ana but now it's so hard I know it's worth the hard times do I'm sticking it out I know when I'm thin everything will be perfect, I made cupcakes for colleagues at work and I will gladly sit here and watch every single person give in to temptation but I will not, I will not let a single crum touch these lips, I had the urge to purge lately but I have fought it I really don't like to purge anymore but that was how I became Ana in the first place, should I go back to what I know? Or should I be punishing myself for not being thinner by now? Oh I wish I knew another Ana out there that could tell me which way to go, tell me I'm lazy when I don't jog, tell me I'm fat when I cave and eat, tell me I'm discussing when she learns my weight, oh how I wish I guess this is the hardest part of starving for perfection doing it alone.