Well day 2 going strong, didn't drink as much juice as I would've liked! Had alot of coffee, no water again another thing I wish I had more of! But I can't drink alot of water, honestly that is the worst part about starving, is drinking water, but I atleast water down all my juice, and only 100% juice! I think I'll get a juicer or a food processor, and juice my own fruits then I know there all juice NO ADDED SUGAR!!
Just to change the subject and mix it up a little:
My life is in fucking shambles! Here it is!
My house mates are making my fucking life miserable!
My work has gotten to the point I'm bored all day long! I'm not challenged mentally anymore!
My family is only half speaking to me ( by that I mean only half the family is talking to me, the other half has just given up!)
I am tempted by food and HATE MY SELF FOR IT!
I can not get down to my GW or even my UGW! That seems so far away!
FUK it y can't anything ever work out? Honestly why? Do I have such bad fucking karma that it's all ment to fall to shit!
Fuck I wish I had all the answers I feel like I do to help others but when it comes to me I have nothing, no solution, no justifications, no hints or tricks, no tips and no answers!
I want to give up, I want to keep fighting, I want to succeed, I want to be happy, I want the tears to stop coming for no reason, I want to be strong, I want to be normal, I want I want I want but I can't have.
But why? Why can't I? Why can't I do this right?
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Hey guys would love to hear from you! If you have any tips, tricks or anything you want to get off your chest let me know!!
All haters comments will be deleted and not read, we don't come into your house and judge you for stuffing you'r face full of food do we?? No so if your not pro ana go eat a cake!! Hahahaha lets starve for a thinner us!
Starve on beauties!! Xxxxx love ya