Just another day in paradise

Ok so on the fast doing well, but this time is harder then usual? I woke up this morning had a Smoke, then ran for the toilet, threw up, since then I've been really spaced out, I have also been uncontrollably hungry! FUK I hope I'm not pregnant! That would explain why this fast is particularly hard, why I've been a total bitch, and why I can not get food outta my head, why? Why when things are going good does life have to throw a curve ball! As a striving ana we already live in our own private hell! Why lump on more shit for me to deal with! I can't take it! I don't wanna be here anymore I hate that things can suddenly change from one minute being great to suddenly turn to shit! FUK it I don't want to play anymore