My bf is my best friend and if he can't love me, who can? Who else can I expect to be with me? Love me, trust them, trust me, I'm listening to linken park, somewhere I belong, I thought with ana is where I belong, but I can't shake this rejection feeling, I don't know who I am, am I an ana in training? Am I a failure? Am I succeeding in ruining my life? Can I be saved? Who can answer these burning questions that feel like my stomach acids are dictating my thoughts, like all these questions rolled into one big question..... Can I live with being such a failure, I over compensate my lack of control in my life with studies, with my bf, with my family but I'm still spiraling out of control and can do nothing to stop it, do I want to though?
Yesterday's diet:
1 x slice whole meal bread, 17 cals
1 x rice cake 10 cals
Today's diet
1 x oak milk 270 cals
I want it all to end I'm done
